Find a way through

 I sit and cry

And you never move

When I sigh, you say it's a bad mood

Then an argument ensures

Angry words start flowing

This cycle keeps going

Alone in the dark

That's where I'll be

Holding myself to comfort me

I should be scared

And the fear is there

But the light will find a way through

Wrong and right been there once or twice

Proving myself trying to gain you back

After all these years

Your vision still unclear

I guess it's time I go

Alone in the dark

That's where I'll be

Holding myself to comfort me

I should be scared

And the fear is there

But the light will find a way through

Even as you hold my hand

It doesn't feel the same

The time has passed slowly

The world is knowingly going

The light will find a way 

It will tell you to go

It will shine bright for me

Follow its path and I will be ok

Alone in the dark

That's where I'll be

Holding myself to comfort me

I should be scared

And the fear is there

But the light will find a way through

it will shine on through

Don't leave me behind

Your words rang in my ears
Something rose from a deep slumber
These feelings are ones I never thought I own
No longer feel like a drone
You make me forget when I'm sad
We can't just forget what we have

Let's not break our hearts
Together we are strong
With each other is where we belong
Don't leave me behind
Baby, say your still mine

We have our hurtles, that's ok
We'll take them day by day
No expectations set, don't want no regrets
Fit me in your life where you can
I am ok with that plan
I don't want to let us go, I'll fight for us til the end
Now baby tell me where we stand

Let's not break our hearts
Together we are strong
With each other is where we belong
Don't leave me behind
Baby, say your still mine

You make me laugh and smile
Waiting for you is worth everything
I love all the things you bring to me
When you sing to me, you make me smile
You are so unique and I won't quit you
Always going to be right here for you

I need to get out of my head
Throw the worry aside and don't dread
I know you love me
Your not wasting my time
I want to always be yours
Please always be mine

Let's not break our hearts
Together we are strong
With each other is where we belong
Don't leave me behind
Baby, say your still mine

Don't want to be without you
My heart is with
Don't leave me behind
Please baby, say your still mine

Lost In Us

Your lips stop my heart when they reach mine
The taste of your mouth so sublime
The caress of your fingers against my cheek
Running them through my hair
Your eyes pierce my soul
You know me better than anyone

Each heartbeat says your name
Every thought has your smile
The breaths that I take
Help me breathe in the moments
I don't want to depart
So, tonight I will get lost in us

Laying between the sheets bodies intertwined
Fingers interlocked my head on your chest
We talk about hopes and dreams
Expressing out deepest feelings
As you kiss the sweat from my forehead
Hold me tight I know whats screaming from inside

Each heartbeat says my name
Every thought has my smile
The breaths that you take
Help you breathe in the moments
You don't want depart
So, tonight you'll get lost in us

Having you by my side
Gives me such a high
The ecstasy I feel
When your pressed against me
Hard to deny the connection
We feel deep inside
So many moments apart
Maybe one day it will stop

Our heartbeats say each others names
Every thought we have is filled with our smiles
The breaths that we take
Helps us breath in the moments
We don't want to depart
So, tonight we will get lost in us

Whispers on the Wind

My lips to your ears
Never made its destination
Lost in a constellation
Some where they are still alive
That's how they become
Whispers on the wind

A flood of memories
Breeze caresses your cheek
Sparking words lost in time
Flying in space
A ride of a lifetime
On re-entry you discovery
Whispers on the wind

Whispers become your words
When they have lost momentum
They can become lost in perception
No longer correct communication
When it becomes a
Whisper on the wind

Hearts beat on and on
Strength from within you hold on
Waiting for messages time and time
Listing everything in your mind
Darkness may be a friend
Light might be an enemy
You will always have
Whispers on the wind

Hidden times in full view
Puzzle pieces in the wrong places
Zippers unlined
Busting at the seams
Remember the good things
As bad ones come to be
Everything will eventually become
Whisper on the wind

Whispers become your words
When they have lost momentum
They can become lost in perception
No longer correct communication
When it becomes a
Whisper on the wind

It all becomes

Winds full of whispers

Raining All Around

I'm sitting in a lonely room
Wondering what the hell I am going to do
So overwhelmed
My head spinning around and around

It's raining all around me
I feel like I am drowning
But I see the sunshine Threw the dark clouds

You put your arms around me
Kiss my cheek
Somehow you always make me feel better
Your my light through it all

It's raining all around me
I feel like I am drowning
But I see the sunshine through the dark clouds

It's just too much
It's just to hard
Your always by my side
You always make it seem right

It's raining all around me
I feel like I am drowning
But I see the sunshine through the dark clouds

It's raining all around me
I feel like I am drowning
But I see the sunshine through the dark clouds

It's raining all around me
I feel like I am drowning
But I see the sunshine through the dark clouds

Your my ray of light

Never Came

Look at the stars, see them burn
So beautiful in the night
Wishing to have been one
To burn the pain away
The way you have changed me
It scares me deep inside
I just want you to go away

Can I jump so high
Leave you behind
Cry at night, your my tears
Throw them away
I wish you never came

An infection that has taken over
no medicine to make it better
Cut me open and take you out
or are you to deep for me to be a cured
can never recover from the poisoned touch
The pieces are far to damaged
No healing can be done

Can I jump so high
Leave you behind
Cry at night, your my tears
Throw them away
I wish you never came

Electric in my head
turning on and off at will
feelings I don't want
they run through me
Stop me, control me, like a puppet
I don't know what to do
I need to be cleansed of you

Can I jump so high
Leave you behind
Cry at night, your my tears
Throw them away
I wish you never came

Inside every part of me
I wish you never came
Let you burn in the stars
wish you never came
Cry, throw away my tears
Jump so high
Leave you behind
I wish you wasn't here

Crazy Crew Tonight

Hangin out right now
Not sure what tomorrow will throw down
But who cares we have tonight
Tomorrows worries not in sight
It's a party night

So let loose and be in the now
No where else I rather be anyhow
Truer words can't be said
It's my crew to the end

Works not done but we'll leave it there
Not like it's going anywhere
Let our hair down, music up loud and proud
Grab a hand and dancin in the crowd

Let loose and be in the now
No where else rather be anyhow
Truer words can't be said
When I'm with the crazy ones
It's my crew to the end

People don't understand our style
Looking at us like we are bazaar
Thats ok insanity is our way
Acting out and being strange is our favorite game
If you don't like it move on
Other wise join us as we party on

Let loose be in the now
No where else rather be anyhow
Truer words can't be said
When I'm with the crazy ones
Don't let the party ever end
Go ahead and join the crazy side
I'm with my crew to the end

What's that light mean?
Oh, party's over. Time to work again

Stand wishing

You, you don't know
What it's like to not have your touch anymore
A whisper blows across my shoulder
I close my eyes and I can fantasize
your caresse against my skin
the feeling once again
but as easily as the breeze comes
it goes away

Somewhere you are with someone else in your arms
where I once was, where I wish
I could be, But here I am
standing only wishing to be

Sit and try to find a way
To not think about everyday
go on about my life in the dark
I want to hide, stay away form
so many things because I'm so afraid
don't know what to do or what to say
All I know is


Somewhere you are with someone
else in your arms
Where I was, Where I wish
I could be, but here I am
standing
only wishing to be

Why can't these memories be washed away
out of my mind, taken so I don't have them close

Or you could be brought back to me
things cna return to the way they use to be

But I guess for now
I will stay in the dark
standing
and keep wishing

Somewhere you are with someone
else in your arms
Where I was, Where I wish
I could be, but here I am
standing
only wishing to be

Just like the wind

A whisper I hear it
It tells me not to fear it
I go on and feel it
To know it to steal it
I want to hold it close
To never let it go
But I know

With the wind it blows away
it will never stay one place
comes and goes changes it's mind
it's direction moves all the time
You whisper your words
And I hear them But they leave
Just like the wind

A heart beat rings in my ears
the blood runs strong through my veins
Your are near that how I know
You can fill me with so much warmth
with you words
when you leave you take them with you
leave me empty, you come and go
But I know

With the wind it blows away
it will never stay one place
comes and goes changes it's mind
it's direction moves all the time
You whisper your words
And I hear them But they leave
Just like the wind

Just for once won't you
say something to me that is true
stop with all your lies
I can't get the rain out of my eyes
I need the sun i need the warmth
I want the wind gone
Things with you will never change
The wind will always stay the same
It is a sad sad shame

With the wind it blows away
it will never stay one place
comes and goes changes it's mind
it's direction moves all the time
You whisper your words
And I hear them But they leave
Just like the wind

To bad your just the wind
Can't stay still
Unable to make up your mind
Your just the wind.

All in one Take

These curve balls I can’t catch them

Come at me from every direction

In life is a coach

The game is the lesson as we go

The book changes as we go

The rules we will never know

So no matter what you know it never stays the same

How do I get through it all 

I don’t have a cheat sheet

The answers change day to day

Someone give me a break

Tell me what will it take

To make it all through in one take

It keeps spinning around and around

Had me so dizzy I fall down

Not enough band aides to bind up all my wounds

What am I suppose to do

I get up and brush it off

Head back three point line

Take another swing at it

But I don’t I can get a touch down

Missed the goal once again

How do I get through it all 

I don’t have a cheat sheet

The answers change day to day

Someone give me a break

Tell me what will it take

To make it all through in one take

I hate that I don’t have the answers

I don’t have the play book

A can’t fire a crocked line

Where is my defense

Please please tell me

How to get through all of this

How do I get through it all 

I don’t have a cheat sheet

The answers change day to day

Someone give me a break

Tell me what will it take

To make it all through in one take

Give me the answers please

Let me look over your shoulder

Help me out whisper the answers

Not sure I can do it on my own

How can I do it all in one take

Break for a Wish

Temptation of your kiss

Sweetness of your lips

Calls to me and begs me to come

I have to find the will to fight it

The warmth from your arms

Wrapped around me so tight

Protect me form harm

But it all can be dangerous

I have to find a way to stop this

I need to break for a wish

Want to know how to resist the fastest of all this

Get through all of this give me a lamp to rub

I want to answer to all of this

A wish bone please give

I need to break for a wish

My smile is because of you

You have no idea what your words make me feel

You lift me up when I am down

You can be my strength when I am weak

I need you

But I need time to think it through

I need to break for a wish

Want to know how to resist the fastest of all this

Get through all of this give me a lamp to rub

I want to answer to all of this

A wish bone please give

I need to break for a wish

Your touch sooths me

Your eyes tell me

Everything I need to know

I am falling fast and hard now

I miss you too much when you are not around

I need to find a way to slow down

But I can’t I want just want to be with you

I need to break for a wish

Want to know how to resist the fastest of all this

Get through all of this give me a lamp to rub

I want to answer to all of this

A wish bone please give

I need to break for a wish

Break, Break for a wish

Give me, give me the best chance in all this

I need to

Break for a wish

Through

The time it takes
for you to correct your mistakes
It's hard to believe
that you have learned you lesson
You claim you real and
true to the end
Let me tell you something
Your end has come

Thats it, I'm done
peace out, I'm gone
I have forgiven to many lies
I'm to good for you, your a fool
So hun, we are through

Slam a door, have a fight
When you wrong
it's such a sight
to watch you prove your right
well I'm putting an end
drawing the finish line

Thats it, I'm done
Peace out, I'm gone
I have forgiven to many lies
I'm to good for you, your a fool
So hun, we are through

You try to back track
do a "U" turn
I promise I won't be concerned
about you or what you do
You been a lesson taught
but you have not learned
so let me tell you something
Our end has finally come

That's it, I'm done
peace out, I'm gone
I have forgiven to many lies
I'm to good for you, your a fool
So hun, we are through

Make-up remover - Dreams

I sleep.. The dreams come filled with many things. Some good, some bad and some just there. But with my eyes closed  I have no control over what comes and goes in my head. So much time has come since things ended. Your voice barely something I can recall in a waken state. Yet my dreams lately have been filled with you. Not of some fantasy that will never come to be being rescued  from the depths of a cave after being kidnapped by vikings. Lost on a trip into the wilderness and saved by a handsome  woodsman that know the woods so well and keep me company and helps me and we fall in love. None of that, not even close. No they are filled of every day things. watching TV and talking about the shows or stupid things people say on Facebook.

Sitting on the couch watching you put together something and getting mad and I laugh under my breath. Things that are normal. Everyday happening things. Never dream of you coming back and telling me your sorry for leaving and hurting me. They are like nothing bad ever happened. I can feel myself smiling while I am sleeping. The happiness from the dreams wash over me and take over while the rest of the world can't see and goes on. These are things that could very well happen and could be. But then I waken. I am in bed with you not laying next to me. and the sadness and pain form when you left that has taken a long time to get over comes back with a vengeance. The tears stream down my face. the happiness I once felt that was real not just a dream is gone and I am reminded of how it left.

Left with a hole once again, one that I thought had healed over. Like putting salt in a very fresh wound it stings and hurts. A scar that no one can see but me. No one will ever know how much it hurt or how big it is. Covered up with smiles and "I'm fine" or "Everything is great in my life" No one will know the truth that lays beneath the lies only my dreams will tel me that I am not over you nor will I ever get over you. Does time really heal all wounds, or does it just help you figure out how to cover them up like a blemish on your face you cover with make-up? All I know is that no matter what you tell your brain, no matter what you convince yourself you feel. Your heart and dreams will always remind you of the truth of the happiness you had and the sadness that it leaves you filled with now.

So each day, after my dreams end, I will put on my "make-up" and cover up the blemish that lays deep inside.

Never really lost

Love is never really lost
It is just misguided

Misguided I was for the longest time
until you came along

You helped me get back on the main road again.

You have taught me how to love
and trust someone again

You have told me to listen to my heart
and no one else

I know now where my heart has been
and Where my love has traveled to

It all went to you
and is now still with you

Forever and always it will never really be lost
Again


This is something I wrote when I was in the 7th grade so forgive the bad stuff i just thought it would be nice to share some old stuff i have written. So enjoy, hopefully.

Trust in Me

You sit there, your hands in your lap
your hair's a mess and your holding back
Scared to share what is in your heart
I understand and I want to know this part
I only hope that one day you will see the light

Baby, don't you see what your heart is feeling
It's aching to scream out the words it means
I know it is hard to release those things
but listen to me, Have faith in me
I am listening
Baby, Trust in me

I hope you will trust in me

Laying in bed starring at the ceiling 
let your mind wonder over your feelings
Stroke my hair, fighting to not love me
But the heart wants what it wants
You can't stop it from feeling
Don't close yourself off listen to what I am saying

Baby, don't you see what your heart is feeling
It's aching to scream out the words it means
I know it is hard to release those things
but listen to me, Have faith in me
I am listening
Baby, Trust in me

I hope you will trust in me
Trust in me
please trust in me

You gotta open up your heart
Let scream out loud.
Let it be known, that your not trapped
that your validated in your own heart
be the one to set yourself free
Please let yourself see that you will always have me

Baby, don't you see what your heart is feeling
It's aching to scream out the words it means
I know it is hard to release those things
but listen to me, Have faith in me
I am listening
Baby, Trust in me

I hope you will trust in me
Will you trust in me
Please trust in me
Trust in me
I can set you free
Have trust in me
Baby please
Trust in me