Find a way through

 I sit and cry

And you never move

When I sigh, you say it's a bad mood

Then an argument ensures

Angry words start flowing

This cycle keeps going

Alone in the dark

That's where I'll be

Holding myself to comfort me

I should be scared

And the fear is there

But the light will find a way through

Wrong and right been there once or twice

Proving myself trying to gain you back

After all these years

Your vision still unclear

I guess it's time I go

Alone in the dark

That's where I'll be

Holding myself to comfort me

I should be scared

And the fear is there

But the light will find a way through

Even as you hold my hand

It doesn't feel the same

The time has passed slowly

The world is knowingly going

The light will find a way 

It will tell you to go

It will shine bright for me

Follow its path and I will be ok

Alone in the dark

That's where I'll be

Holding myself to comfort me

I should be scared

And the fear is there

But the light will find a way through

it will shine on through

If I gave you a moment

If I gave you a moment
What would you do with it
Could you make things right
Would you tell the truth
In that moment could you
do what you needed to do
Make things right
Fight with all your might
Make this moment count
You can't go back in time
If you had a moment
What would you do

Drink your coffee and sip your tea
think you did right by somebody
Soon you will see
How well you have done
what will your final grade be
Can you be happy with it
Live with the guilt
Turn around and see the damage
An accident in slow motion
You can't turn away or stop it
It's to late to change it but what if

If I gave you a moment
What would you do with it
Could you make things right
Would you tell the truth
In that moment could you
do what you needed to do
Make things right
Fight with all your might
Make this moment count
You can't go back in time
If you had a moment
What would you do

You rewind in your mind
Play it over wish to re-record again
But you can't do another take
You already printed it
It's out in the world now
The moment has passed
It will always last
It might be forgotten
But it may not be forgiven
No do overs in this
BUt if you had a second chance
What would you do with it
How would you handle it

If I gave you a moment
What would you do with it
Could you make things right
Would you tell the truth
In that moment could you
do what you needed to do
Make things right
Fight with all your might
Make this moment count
You can't go back in time
If you had a moment
What would you do

It goes and it comes
You say what you think they want
But do you feel that way
Times change so do we
Hard as it is to believe
Say you do for others
What happens when the timer buzz's
Do you stay true or do you run
Promises don't always come true
Broken and bruised we become
Tossed around so much
Jaded from so much stuff

If I gave you a moment
What would you do with it
Could you make things right
Would you tell the truth
In that moment could you
do what you needed to do
Make things right
Fight with all your might
Make this moment count
You can't go back in time
If you had a moment
What would you do

Hit replay in your mind
Pause and hold that moment
Wish what you could change
Know it's never going to be the same
Hold on to your words
Use them with care
Stand up, climb to the top
see your moment clear
Make it count when you can
Cause in that moment that's all you get

If I gave you a moment
What would you do with it
Could you make things right
Would you tell the truth
In that moment could you
do what you needed to do
Make things right
Fight with all your might
Make this moment count
You can't go back in time
If you had a moment
What would you do

Whispers on the Wind

My lips to your ears
Never made its destination
Lost in a constellation
Some where they are still alive
That's how they become
Whispers on the wind

A flood of memories
Breeze caresses your cheek
Sparking words lost in time
Flying in space
A ride of a lifetime
On re-entry you discovery
Whispers on the wind

Whispers become your words
When they have lost momentum
They can become lost in perception
No longer correct communication
When it becomes a
Whisper on the wind

Hearts beat on and on
Strength from within you hold on
Waiting for messages time and time
Listing everything in your mind
Darkness may be a friend
Light might be an enemy
You will always have
Whispers on the wind

Hidden times in full view
Puzzle pieces in the wrong places
Zippers unlined
Busting at the seams
Remember the good things
As bad ones come to be
Everything will eventually become
Whisper on the wind

Whispers become your words
When they have lost momentum
They can become lost in perception
No longer correct communication
When it becomes a
Whisper on the wind

It all becomes

Winds full of whispers

Never Came

Look at the stars, see them burn
So beautiful in the night
Wishing to have been one
To burn the pain away
The way you have changed me
It scares me deep inside
I just want you to go away

Can I jump so high
Leave you behind
Cry at night, your my tears
Throw them away
I wish you never came

An infection that has taken over
no medicine to make it better
Cut me open and take you out
or are you to deep for me to be a cured
can never recover from the poisoned touch
The pieces are far to damaged
No healing can be done

Can I jump so high
Leave you behind
Cry at night, your my tears
Throw them away
I wish you never came

Electric in my head
turning on and off at will
feelings I don't want
they run through me
Stop me, control me, like a puppet
I don't know what to do
I need to be cleansed of you

Can I jump so high
Leave you behind
Cry at night, your my tears
Throw them away
I wish you never came

Inside every part of me
I wish you never came
Let you burn in the stars
wish you never came
Cry, throw away my tears
Jump so high
Leave you behind
I wish you wasn't here

Stand wishing

You, you don't know
What it's like to not have your touch anymore
A whisper blows across my shoulder
I close my eyes and I can fantasize
your caresse against my skin
the feeling once again
but as easily as the breeze comes
it goes away

Somewhere you are with someone else in your arms
where I once was, where I wish
I could be, But here I am
standing only wishing to be

Sit and try to find a way
To not think about everyday
go on about my life in the dark
I want to hide, stay away form
so many things because I'm so afraid
don't know what to do or what to say
All I know is


Somewhere you are with someone
else in your arms
Where I was, Where I wish
I could be, but here I am
standing
only wishing to be

Why can't these memories be washed away
out of my mind, taken so I don't have them close

Or you could be brought back to me
things cna return to the way they use to be

But I guess for now
I will stay in the dark
standing
and keep wishing

Somewhere you are with someone
else in your arms
Where I was, Where I wish
I could be, but here I am
standing
only wishing to be

Make-up remover - Dreams

I sleep.. The dreams come filled with many things. Some good, some bad and some just there. But with my eyes closed  I have no control over what comes and goes in my head. So much time has come since things ended. Your voice barely something I can recall in a waken state. Yet my dreams lately have been filled with you. Not of some fantasy that will never come to be being rescued  from the depths of a cave after being kidnapped by vikings. Lost on a trip into the wilderness and saved by a handsome  woodsman that know the woods so well and keep me company and helps me and we fall in love. None of that, not even close. No they are filled of every day things. watching TV and talking about the shows or stupid things people say on Facebook.

Sitting on the couch watching you put together something and getting mad and I laugh under my breath. Things that are normal. Everyday happening things. Never dream of you coming back and telling me your sorry for leaving and hurting me. They are like nothing bad ever happened. I can feel myself smiling while I am sleeping. The happiness from the dreams wash over me and take over while the rest of the world can't see and goes on. These are things that could very well happen and could be. But then I waken. I am in bed with you not laying next to me. and the sadness and pain form when you left that has taken a long time to get over comes back with a vengeance. The tears stream down my face. the happiness I once felt that was real not just a dream is gone and I am reminded of how it left.

Left with a hole once again, one that I thought had healed over. Like putting salt in a very fresh wound it stings and hurts. A scar that no one can see but me. No one will ever know how much it hurt or how big it is. Covered up with smiles and "I'm fine" or "Everything is great in my life" No one will know the truth that lays beneath the lies only my dreams will tel me that I am not over you nor will I ever get over you. Does time really heal all wounds, or does it just help you figure out how to cover them up like a blemish on your face you cover with make-up? All I know is that no matter what you tell your brain, no matter what you convince yourself you feel. Your heart and dreams will always remind you of the truth of the happiness you had and the sadness that it leaves you filled with now.

So each day, after my dreams end, I will put on my "make-up" and cover up the blemish that lays deep inside.

Miss The Rain

I sit on the couch where you use to sit
Wrapped up in a blanket pretending your arms are there
I close my eyes and see your face
Then the thunder rumbles in the sky
Back to reality I fly
Empty room I sit and cry
The dark might consume me
I just need you to hear one thing

I miss you like the flowers miss the rain
in the middle of a heat wave
To not have you laughter in my ear is painful
your touch is distance and non existent
Hunni don't you know I miss you like the
flowers miss the rain

the phone rings with a message my heart skips a beat
But when it's not your name tears stream my cheeks 
Knock at the door can make my breath stop cold
But I know when I open it you won't be standing there

I am dying to touch your hair
lay my head on your chest
Baby don't you care
You just can't leave me


I miss you like the flowers miss the rain
in the middle of a heat wave
To not have you laughter in my ear is painful
your touch is distance and non existent
Hunni don't you know I miss you like the
flowers miss the rain

I am drying out form the endless stream of tears
Need a life preserver to save me from this pain
lost in this sea of despair
Loneliness my only friend
I want you to come back and hold me tight
keep me close and kiss away the tears
Bring back the rain

I miss you like the flowers miss the rain
in the middle of a heat wave
To not have you laughter in my ear is painful
your touch is distance and non existent
Hunni don't you know I miss you like the
flowers miss the rain

I miss you like the flowers miss the rain
Bring back the rain take away the sun
it's drying me out
I miss you like the flowers miss the rain
Missin you so bad baby
Like the flowers.....
Miss the rain