Whispers on the Wind

My lips to your ears
Never made its destination
Lost in a constellation
Some where they are still alive
That's how they become
Whispers on the wind

A flood of memories
Breeze caresses your cheek
Sparking words lost in time
Flying in space
A ride of a lifetime
On re-entry you discovery
Whispers on the wind

Whispers become your words
When they have lost momentum
They can become lost in perception
No longer correct communication
When it becomes a
Whisper on the wind

Hearts beat on and on
Strength from within you hold on
Waiting for messages time and time
Listing everything in your mind
Darkness may be a friend
Light might be an enemy
You will always have
Whispers on the wind

Hidden times in full view
Puzzle pieces in the wrong places
Zippers unlined
Busting at the seams
Remember the good things
As bad ones come to be
Everything will eventually become
Whisper on the wind

Whispers become your words
When they have lost momentum
They can become lost in perception
No longer correct communication
When it becomes a
Whisper on the wind

It all becomes

Winds full of whispers

Never Came

Look at the stars, see them burn
So beautiful in the night
Wishing to have been one
To burn the pain away
The way you have changed me
It scares me deep inside
I just want you to go away

Can I jump so high
Leave you behind
Cry at night, your my tears
Throw them away
I wish you never came

An infection that has taken over
no medicine to make it better
Cut me open and take you out
or are you to deep for me to be a cured
can never recover from the poisoned touch
The pieces are far to damaged
No healing can be done

Can I jump so high
Leave you behind
Cry at night, your my tears
Throw them away
I wish you never came

Electric in my head
turning on and off at will
feelings I don't want
they run through me
Stop me, control me, like a puppet
I don't know what to do
I need to be cleansed of you

Can I jump so high
Leave you behind
Cry at night, your my tears
Throw them away
I wish you never came

Inside every part of me
I wish you never came
Let you burn in the stars
wish you never came
Cry, throw away my tears
Jump so high
Leave you behind
I wish you wasn't here

The Effects

Time ticks on and my mind goes array
Thoughts are carrying me away
I worry about what will happen
my choices affect so much
Time will tell me what to do eventually
But I am not sure I can wait that long
I wonder if I can figure it out as I sing my song

Ripples in the water are our choices
They run across so much
Flap my wings and be selfish
But I can't help but wonder what Tsunami might come
I can't bring that down on anyone
Which way should take off

Everyday we just make choices
Not knowing what they do
We think they might not hurt anyone
But in a way they effect everyone
I don't want to cause rocky waters
I don't want to sink someones boat
But choices have to be made so I think as I go on

Ripples in the water are our choices
They run across so much
Flap my wings and be selfish
But I can't help but wonder what Tsunami might come
I can't bring that down on anyone
Which way should take off

How do we live knowing
That we have caused pain someplace
Broken relationships become of our choices
At times it is hard to just listen
But they keep telling me to put me first
Be selfish its worth it
Not sure if it truly is

Ripples in the water are our choices
They run across so much
Flap my wings an be selfish
But I can't help but wonder what Tsunami might come
I can't bring that down on anyone
Which way should take off

Ripples, wings flap
Winds change
It's a fact it effects
Everything

Miss The Rain

I sit on the couch where you use to sit
Wrapped up in a blanket pretending your arms are there
I close my eyes and see your face
Then the thunder rumbles in the sky
Back to reality I fly
Empty room I sit and cry
The dark might consume me
I just need you to hear one thing

I miss you like the flowers miss the rain
in the middle of a heat wave
To not have you laughter in my ear is painful
your touch is distance and non existent
Hunni don't you know I miss you like the
flowers miss the rain

the phone rings with a message my heart skips a beat
But when it's not your name tears stream my cheeks 
Knock at the door can make my breath stop cold
But I know when I open it you won't be standing there

I am dying to touch your hair
lay my head on your chest
Baby don't you care
You just can't leave me


I miss you like the flowers miss the rain
in the middle of a heat wave
To not have you laughter in my ear is painful
your touch is distance and non existent
Hunni don't you know I miss you like the
flowers miss the rain

I am drying out form the endless stream of tears
Need a life preserver to save me from this pain
lost in this sea of despair
Loneliness my only friend
I want you to come back and hold me tight
keep me close and kiss away the tears
Bring back the rain

I miss you like the flowers miss the rain
in the middle of a heat wave
To not have you laughter in my ear is painful
your touch is distance and non existent
Hunni don't you know I miss you like the
flowers miss the rain

I miss you like the flowers miss the rain
Bring back the rain take away the sun
it's drying me out
I miss you like the flowers miss the rain
Missin you so bad baby
Like the flowers.....
Miss the rain

Drowning

The hurt and pain that I am in right now does not even begin to describe what I put you through. I know I did wrong. I know this, I understand this and I accept it. But at least I didn't do my wrong where we share our life together. Where we share our family time. Where we are together. Where our children are. The tears have not stopped. Even though you might not be able to see them streaming down my cheeks and form my bloodshot eyes.
On the inside I am a dam that has been broken and all the water is rushing over everything around making it hard to see drowning in my sadness and sorrow. Not knowing where I can turn. Who I can trust with my feelings, my heart. The place I want to run to I can't. The place I should want to run to I don't want to because of the pain and the feelings that I do and don't have. Of the fear that I will be alone forever or I may stay for the wrong reasons. Of the fear that I do truly want you and just don't see it for myself yet.
I still have wants and feeling that are outside of you. That are for someone else. It could just be a possible fleeting things like a mid life crisis. After I buy the bright shiny red corvette  and drive it for a bit I will be done and over it. I will be fine and know everything that I want. Or it could be something real and more that will pull me someplace I have never been and I might want to stay there and be in that moment forever and never leave. To be wrapped in the arms of something I have missed for a while. To feel things that have been absent for so long.
I don't know what I want at this point. I am so sick of saying I don't know but right now with all the confusion I can't see the answers through all the fog that is clouding the path in front of me. Eventually it will clear and I will be able to see. I will know and so will you and everyone else that needs to know. Until then I don't know the answers that you seek or that I seek. I wish I did make things so much easier. Right now that is not the case. So until then I grasp at the passing tree branch's to save myself until they break. waiting for my life boat to save me. And to see who my rescuer is.