Break for a Wish

Temptation of your kiss

Sweetness of your lips

Calls to me and begs me to come

I have to find the will to fight it

The warmth from your arms

Wrapped around me so tight

Protect me form harm

But it all can be dangerous

I have to find a way to stop this

I need to break for a wish

Want to know how to resist the fastest of all this

Get through all of this give me a lamp to rub

I want to answer to all of this

A wish bone please give

I need to break for a wish

My smile is because of you

You have no idea what your words make me feel

You lift me up when I am down

You can be my strength when I am weak

I need you

But I need time to think it through

I need to break for a wish

Want to know how to resist the fastest of all this

Get through all of this give me a lamp to rub

I want to answer to all of this

A wish bone please give

I need to break for a wish

Your touch sooths me

Your eyes tell me

Everything I need to know

I am falling fast and hard now

I miss you too much when you are not around

I need to find a way to slow down

But I can’t I want just want to be with you

I need to break for a wish

Want to know how to resist the fastest of all this

Get through all of this give me a lamp to rub

I want to answer to all of this

A wish bone please give

I need to break for a wish

Break, Break for a wish

Give me, give me the best chance in all this

I need to

Break for a wish

Make-up remover - Dreams

I sleep.. The dreams come filled with many things. Some good, some bad and some just there. But with my eyes closed  I have no control over what comes and goes in my head. So much time has come since things ended. Your voice barely something I can recall in a waken state. Yet my dreams lately have been filled with you. Not of some fantasy that will never come to be being rescued  from the depths of a cave after being kidnapped by vikings. Lost on a trip into the wilderness and saved by a handsome  woodsman that know the woods so well and keep me company and helps me and we fall in love. None of that, not even close. No they are filled of every day things. watching TV and talking about the shows or stupid things people say on Facebook.

Sitting on the couch watching you put together something and getting mad and I laugh under my breath. Things that are normal. Everyday happening things. Never dream of you coming back and telling me your sorry for leaving and hurting me. They are like nothing bad ever happened. I can feel myself smiling while I am sleeping. The happiness from the dreams wash over me and take over while the rest of the world can't see and goes on. These are things that could very well happen and could be. But then I waken. I am in bed with you not laying next to me. and the sadness and pain form when you left that has taken a long time to get over comes back with a vengeance. The tears stream down my face. the happiness I once felt that was real not just a dream is gone and I am reminded of how it left.

Left with a hole once again, one that I thought had healed over. Like putting salt in a very fresh wound it stings and hurts. A scar that no one can see but me. No one will ever know how much it hurt or how big it is. Covered up with smiles and "I'm fine" or "Everything is great in my life" No one will know the truth that lays beneath the lies only my dreams will tel me that I am not over you nor will I ever get over you. Does time really heal all wounds, or does it just help you figure out how to cover them up like a blemish on your face you cover with make-up? All I know is that no matter what you tell your brain, no matter what you convince yourself you feel. Your heart and dreams will always remind you of the truth of the happiness you had and the sadness that it leaves you filled with now.

So each day, after my dreams end, I will put on my "make-up" and cover up the blemish that lays deep inside.