Dreams of you

I woke up today and you was on my mind. You ran with me in my dreams in a land that is not so far. Brushed my hair out of my face when the rain started falling. twirled me around in circles and dance with the drops falling on our faces. Soaking our clothes through and making them stick. You didn't care because you all you said you needed was to have me near. You held my hand and tangled your fingers in between mine. brought my hand up to your lips and kissed it said "always be mine". I smiled gently and looked deep into your eyes and mouthed the words very quietly "and you will always be mine." And with a kiss that tasted so sweet and lingered on forever the rain stopped and the sun rose. The grass began to dry. A noise from outside this world rang out in the sky. I woke up with a smile and thinking of you. Still able to taste that kiss lingering on my lips. I will go through the day with a smile that no one will understand until I am able to meet with you in my dreams again.

the light in the dark

In a dark tunnel I have been for a long time. And suddenly a light appears. A unknown light one that is not familiar to me but feels like I have had it all along. It is warm and inviting. And holds something sweet. The picture of a warm summer day appears in my mind. The nice warm breeze blowing through my hair. my skin being kissed by the sun. Reaching out, I, feel you. You warmth and comfort. Like a dream come true. Into your arms you fold me and pull me close. Letting me hear your heartbeat taking in your scent and letting me relax into you. But then the coldness washes over me and the light is fading. I rush and scamper to try and hold onto it. Running towards it because i know that i want it in my life. It's not a need it is want. Just pure and utter want. Your light is being pulled away and i am trying to make it stay. Please don't leave me in the dark to fight with my own vices stay with me light it up so I can see it all and help me fight through all of it.

Rock Tonight

It's Wensday night
so madian, bored to the core
gonna go insane
grab my cell and text my girls
I gotta break out of this cage
I feel something riseing up
a heat that I just can't beat
gotta go, gotta get
Lets rock this town tonight

I gotta rock, gotta jive
I got my ripped jeans on
Ready to dance tonight
I gotta rock,
dance in the street lights
I gotta rock tonight.

The horn beeps outside
the girls have arived
lets go for a drive.
Turn it up, gotta feel the bass
of the great tunes
find a empty parking lot
pull in and turn the volume up
I don't give crap who shows up
Gotta rock this town tonight

I gotta rock, gotta jive
I got my ripped jeans on
ready to dance tonight
I gotta rock
dance in the street lights
I gotta rock tonight

Someone is gonna call the cops
but I don't care
they can party too
Fill the streets
scream from the roof tops
everyone together now
we are gonna rock this town

I gotta rock, gotta live
my ripped jeans are on
ready to dance tonight
I gotta rock
dance in the street lights
I gotta rock tonight

I gotta rock
ready to roll
Dancing tonight gonna rock these streets
Gotta rock
lets dance
lets show the world how to do it
Gotta rock
gotta go we are gonna put on a show
Gotta rock, I gotta rock
gotta roll ready to go
lets rock and roll
I gotta rock
Let's go!

The only you

Why are you crying hun?
Lets wipe those rain clouds from your eyes
Dry the drops from you cheeks
tell me all the things that are buried deep inside
know that you will rise to the sky
listen to me baby
don't believe their lies

Baby your one of a kind
your purely sublime
no one can replace you
your something special baby
Don't forget your one of a kind

You make dress differnet
dye your hair funky colors
all the piercings and tattoos don't matter
Your beautiful just the way you are
your stronger than you know
You have the brightest glow

Baby your the one of a kind
your purley sublime
no one cna replace you
your somethign special
Don't forget your one of a kind

your figure means nothing to me
what is inside of you is all that I care about
that is all that matters
that is what makes the world go round.
you have your feet on the ground
you can touch the stars
You can mark Mars
Your beautiful, your fabulous, your the greatest
there is no one in this world like you.
your unique, your wonderful

Baby your one of a kind
your purley sublime
no one can replace you
no one can tak your place
you have a wonderful face
no one can take your place
your one, your the only one
your one of a kind
there is no one like you
your the only you

Runnin Away

I'm runnin away
I gonna leave it all behind
Need to find a way
to run my own life

The rain comes down
it soaks through exposing all the wounds
hard to hide, what is in plain view
Can you hear my screams see my tears
I am trying to hide all my fears
Can you help me face my fears

I'm runnin away
gonna leave it all behind
Got to find a way
to see the light

Hide in a corner
not sure what is bolder
admitting the scare or the
hurt deep down inside
you can't see it but I feel it all the time
I fight the night to see the daylight
runs away my fears


Runnin away today
Leavin it all behind
Gotta say what stays
and what is thrown to the side
gonna make my own way
gonna stand tall
and leave the rest behind

Got to work my life
and make it right
find what works
and what is really mine
see the way to find
to, find my peace of mind

I'm runnin away today
gonna leave it all behind
gotta try to find
my peace of mind

Trust in Me

You sit there, your hands in your lap
your hair's a mess and your holding back
Scared to share what is in your heart
I understand and I want to know this part
I only hope that one day you will see the light

Baby, don't you see what your heart is feeling
It's aching to scream out the words it means
I know it is hard to release those things
but listen to me, Have faith in me
I am listening
Baby, Trust in me

I hope you will trust in me

Laying in bed starring at the ceiling 
let your mind wonder over your feelings
Stroke my hair, fighting to not love me
But the heart wants what it wants
You can't stop it from feeling
Don't close yourself off listen to what I am saying

Baby, don't you see what your heart is feeling
It's aching to scream out the words it means
I know it is hard to release those things
but listen to me, Have faith in me
I am listening
Baby, Trust in me

I hope you will trust in me
Trust in me
please trust in me

You gotta open up your heart
Let scream out loud.
Let it be known, that your not trapped
that your validated in your own heart
be the one to set yourself free
Please let yourself see that you will always have me

Baby, don't you see what your heart is feeling
It's aching to scream out the words it means
I know it is hard to release those things
but listen to me, Have faith in me
I am listening
Baby, Trust in me

I hope you will trust in me
Will you trust in me
Please trust in me
Trust in me
I can set you free
Have trust in me
Baby please
Trust in me

fight

I am so bloody fucking pissed right now it's just not right. He ask me what is wrong why I have been so guarded so I tell him, and he turns it around on me. And makes his problems his issues my fault. What the hell? He does things and acts in a way that scares me and it is my fault. He says that I am the unstable one. That I am the one with all the problem and issues. But that is just not true. Yes I have a few things that I am going through emotionally but I am not unstable. I am hurt and confused. I am tired and stressed. I am tired of fighting of being strong. I just want happiness. I want laughter and smiles. I want simpleness and fun. I want everything to be ok. I just want to.......be.

Peace is hard to come and there will always be problems and stuff and I understand that. There is a common ground, there is somewhere we can find a little bit of peace not total peace but a little. To lay in the arms of the one I love and not feel like I was mad to do it. To not feel scared, but too feel safe. I want to feel safe. I wish for  my prince my knight in shining armor. Where is he? When will he come and rescue me from my depression and loneliness?