Letter to you

 Sit and look out the window

The warmth of the sun on my face 

Thoughts of your in my head

Memories of things we shared

I keep them locked away just for me

No one else needs to see

How much they mean to me

This is my letter to you

Just to tell you I remember you

Everything we use to do

Even though you've been gone

I'll never forget our song

All this time I still cry

This my letter to you

Late night cuddles and kisses

Hours talking about nothing

Running your fingers across my face

There was never a moment of disgrace

Hearing your heartbeat

This I never saw coming

And I miss you, oh I miss you

This is my letter to you

Just to tell you I remember you

Everything we use to do

Even though you've been gone

I'll never forget our song

All this time I still cry

This my letter to you

My heart has been broken 

Only you can fix it

I wish we could go back

Be the way we was

I want you, don't want to lose you

Don't you see 

What we mean to each other

This is my letter to you

You are always in my head

All our memories in my heart

You are a part of me

This is my letter to you

P.S. I love you

Buried emotions

 I stand alone in the crowd

Screaming and no one can hear me

What can I do to make it through

When did I become to tiny

I need it to be known

It has to to be done

It can't be kept inside

My emotions are real

They are being lived right now

Trying to hide them away

Trying to put them underground

It will just make them grow brighter

And scream so much louder

I been fighting the past for so long

Hiding in false happiness and TV scripts

I can't do it anymore

Have to have my own things to adore

I need it to be known

It has to be done

I can't keep myself locked away anymore

My emotions are real 

I'm living them right now

Trying to hide them away

Trying to put them underground

It'll just make them grow brighter

And scream that much louder

I'm not something that can be kept in the dark

Only pull out the fake me

The world has to see it all

The good, the bad and everything in between

All that makes me a human being

Take it or leave it 

This is real and now

I need to be known

It has to be done

Can't be kept inside anymore

My emotions are real

And so am I

Going to live them, not bury them

The good, the bad and everything in between

Find a way through

 I sit and cry

And you never move

When I sigh, you say it's a bad mood

Then an argument ensures

Angry words start flowing

This cycle keeps going

Alone in the dark

That's where I'll be

Holding myself to comfort me

I should be scared

And the fear is there

But the light will find a way through

Wrong and right been there once or twice

Proving myself trying to gain you back

After all these years

Your vision still unclear

I guess it's time I go

Alone in the dark

That's where I'll be

Holding myself to comfort me

I should be scared

And the fear is there

But the light will find a way through

Even as you hold my hand

It doesn't feel the same

The time has passed slowly

The world is knowingly going

The light will find a way 

It will tell you to go

It will shine bright for me

Follow its path and I will be ok

Alone in the dark

That's where I'll be

Holding myself to comfort me

I should be scared

And the fear is there

But the light will find a way through

it will shine on through

Sad Girl

Sad girl why do you cry
Tell me why there is rain in your eyes
What has brought this storm to you
Bend my ear tell me what happened to you

No one notices the stains from your eyes
Walking alone, the world passes you by
Full of pain that piles on
Weighs you down, it's hard to move on
No where to turn, feel like you failed
Tell me now why does your heart wale

Sad girl what is wrong
Why do you keep playing the same sad song
What demons are hiding with in
Tell me all your sorrow and sins

Each day feels harder than the last
Feel like your ready to shatter like a glass in an explosion
Holding in all the things that can't be said
All the things that people don't won't want to hear
You crave for release of it all
Tell me why your so conflicted

Sad girl what is wrong
Why do you keep playing the same sad song
What demons are hiding with in
Tell me all your sorrow and sins

Silently scream at the world
Tell them all the wrongs there are
Keep trying to break free
Let them know what is really wrong
Lay it out, on the line
Your emotions are not a crime

So tell me Sad girl what is wrong
Why do you keep playing the same sad song
What demons are hiding within
Tell me all your sorrow and sins

Sad girl why do you cry
Tell me why there is rain in your eyes
What has brought this storm to you
Bend my ear tell me what happened to you

Waterproof Mascara

My heart aches, it hurts
More then I ever thought it could
More than any heart ever should
Crying for hours upon hours
Waterproof mascara, helps hide some of the tears
Red eyes and blotchy face has replaced the happiness on my face

To many words was said
I was temporarily going out of my head
I wish I could of stopped myself
Baby please tell me what to do

I don't want to be without you
I can't stop thinking about you
All I want to do is hold you
Baby, I'm so sorry
I miss you, do you, do you miss me too

I got to into my had once again
Let it all take a hold of me
I know how I messed up
I'm paying for it with tears and a broken heart
Going to run out of cover up
Baby, baby tell me is your heart hurting too

To many words was said
I was temporarily going out of my head
I wish I could of stopped myself
Baby please tell me what to do

I don't want to be without you
I can't stop thinking about you
All I want to do is hold you
Baby, I'm so sorry
I miss you, do you, do you miss me too

I know right now the anger is strong
Makes it easy to want to hate me
But I think about what we shared
And how much we both really care
See what was happening from me was fear
I know I should of trusted and relaxed
But now I can't take it back
But I can say that I wish I hadn't said the words in the first place

I don't want to be without you
I can't stop thinking about you
All I want to do is hold you
Baby, I'm so sorry
I miss you, do you, do you miss me too

Feel it out

I sit here, all alone
Need to figure out where to go
Hard to say where I'll end up today
All I know is that I have my bagged packed
Ready to explore it all

So let's hit the road
Let's figure it out
Let's see what will happen
Follow the feeling stepping in their laid out path
I don't know what will happen
We have no map to follow
But let's go ahead and feel these feelings out

You touch me there's electricity
We hit a storm, ride it out
Drive on through it
Emotions strong and loud
Everyone see's it now

So let's hit the road
Let's figure it out
Let's see what will happen
Follow the feeling stepping in their laid out path
I don't know what will happen
We have no map to follow
But let's go ahead and feel these feelings out

We might get stuck on a round about
End up at a dead end
We might have to back track
Let all the emotions construct the road

The only way to know
We have to try
Walk that line
Follow the feelings
Let's travel down that road
forget our map and compass

So let's hit the road
Let's figure it out
Let's see what will happen
Follow the feeling stepping in their laid out path
I don't know what will happen
We have no map to follow
But let's go ahead and feel these feelings out

Emotional Haul

Look into her eyes, what do you see
Might it be all the possibilities
Or do you see the fear that lives there
Deep inside she hides, many things she will deny
A smile on her lips, you'll never know, it's not fair

She burns inside, fire out of control
Ready to explode, but no one can ever know

The mixture of it all
The formual that makes her up
Maybe, someday, she will let it all go
Then someone will know her true emotional haul

Her happiness is a struggle
Searching to find it, but she feels she is denied it
What makes her smile doesn't last, it quickly fades into the past
Sadness takes over, she cries into her shoulder
How long will it last, why does it last

She burns inside, fire out of control
Ready to explode, but no one can ever know

The mixture of it all
The formual that makes her up
Maybe, someday, she will let it all go
Then someone will know her true emotional haul

Kiss and tell with her emotions, she will never tell anyone
Secrets she keeps hidden, people keep trying to break in
Protecting herself from the pain of happiness and saddness
She wants to be numb, but she yearns to feel it all
Unlock that vault and see whats inside
Release her, let her feel, show her something real


She burns inside, fire out of control
Ready to explode, but no one can ever know

The mixture of it all
The formual that makes her up
Maybe, someday, she will let it all go
Then someone will know her true emotional haul

Pain, regret, buried deep
Love, desire, so steep,
lust, and anger, mixed in
Sadness and hope, added on
The formual of it all

Who is willing to know it all
To help her feel it and let it go
Who will let her know her true emotional haul